My journey to motherhood started in back in 2014. To say the road was bumpy is an understatement. As many of you know I wasn’t one of the lucky ones who got pregnant on her first try. I also wasn’t one of the lucky ones who got to hear the heartbeat of her first or even her second child. But the greatest blessing of my life was worth the wait. Morgan Ray McCombs was born on March 18th of this year.
My road to motherhood will continue as Adam and I try for future children in the coming years. I have no idea what the road ahead looks like but my perspective has changed so much since I started the blog last year.
Currently, I am learning how to be a mother with a deployed husband. There are a lot of sleepless nights and long days that somehow equal unexplainable joy. As much as I miss my husband I know he misses me and my daughter more. He has done an amazing job encouraging me through phone calls and messages and always tries to be available to video chat when Morgan isn’t napping so he can see her.
I am thankful for the short but precious moments we have spent together this year. From Adam making it home to meet his baby girl and change her first diaper to celebrating his younger brother’s wedding in Charlotte, I believe we have been blessed. I look forward to one adventure in Asheville this fall and one adventure overseas for Thanksgiving. It’s the anticipation of seeing him again that keeps me going.
Just yesterday I was given the phone number of a women who was going through the pain of a third pregnancy loss. The story of her losses hurt my heart and I was asked to reach out to her. To my surprise I could barely make it through the voice message I was leaving her. I felt embarrassed that I was choking up. But I knew exactly what she was going through and I realized in that moment how important this blog is for me; how important it is for you.
There have been a lot of thoughts that have crossed my mind since I became a mother:
“Am I still allowed to post stories on a blog about infertility and loss?”
“Will women still want to hear from someone ‘on the other side’ of this community no one wants to be a part of?”
“Will I still be able to sympathize and relate to the readers and volunteer writers?”
“Are women still in need of what this blog has to say?”
After much thought and prayer I have determined the answer is yes. I believe there is still a large population of women who need encouragement, who want to help others through hope-filled words and who need a place that makes the day a little easier when things are not going the way they planned. And of course, my road to motherhood and stories will continue as I journey forward with the hopes of future children.
My prayer today is still the same as when I started this blog. I pray the stories you find here bring you peace and hope. I pray this is a place where you can find support on your road2motherhood… your unique, scary, crazy, winding, beautiful road2motherhood.